It is without saying that I wish the pregnancy score will finally beat out the miscarriage one. I am at that point where the majority of other bloggers I follow either have their little bundle of joy, or are finally experiencing continued pregnancy. And I am happy for them. I just wish I was experiencing it with them. My younger sister who had been trying for 14 months had her baby girl a week before my last miscarriage. I am happy she didn’t have to go through everything, shots, heartache, etc. that I did. But so sad when I think about our situation. There will always be ups and downs, and I need to think positive so I don’t fall into a downward spiral of self pitty and despair. We will have our little miracles someday. I have to keep believing.
Well I haven’t documented the final bouts of this last miscarriage. For our fourth round of IVF, I lasted 5 weeks 2 days (8:30-9pm), and then 6 weeks 5 days (6pm) until I had the miscarriages.
I have a history of having incomplete miscarriages. My body won’t keep our little babies, however it wants to still hold onto the pregnancy tissue. I just wish it would make up its mind…for the better option of course.
My final miscarriage for this pregnancy occurred on the 12th. I went in to see my dr. on the 18th to see if I had a completed miscarriage. With my luck, of course I didn’t. Another incomplete miscarriage. He had me start miso, I opted for the weekend so I wouldn’t have to experience cramping and bleeding while trying to work. So Friday the 22nd I took my first round of pills. My instructions were to vaginally insert 4 miso pills. If within 24 hours later there wasn’t significant bleeding, to then do another 4.
I did the first round. Hardly anything came out. I did the second round, and some more came out. But comparing that to how much tissue and blood I saw was still inside of my uterus from my ultrasound on the 18th, I knew not all of it was out. A tiny bit came out here and there up till our next appointment.
Actually, it’s PRETTY sad that I have enough experience with miscarriages to tell if it is complete or not. ;(
So we went in for another ultrasound on the 26th. Our regular dr. was on vacation, so we saw the other RE. Sure enough, I still had more. We could try another round of miso or go straight into a d&c. It is always recommended to avoid surgery whenever possible, so I opted to do another round of miso. Except this time I didn’t take the ibuprofen. She said that sometimes it prevented everything from coming out. I was up for trying something different since I wanted different results. So I started it the miso the very next day. Four pills/suppositories. I had a feeling I wouldn’t have too much cramping or bleeding. And my instincts were correct. I did the other 4 pills the following day, Thursday the 28th. I knew it wasn’t enough. I don’t know how I knew, I just did.
We went in on Tuesday May 3rd for another ultrasound. I needed a d&c. Our options were to have it the next day, Thursday, or the following Tuesday. Well I was just numb and so over it at this point. I couldn’t do it that week-I was one of the ones in charge of a Huge track meet we had that Wednesday and Friday. Obviously if I had to I could take it off, but I was just so upset and honestly, angry that I had to have another d&c I didn’t care to make it a priority. So I was going to have it the following Tuesday. However the nurse didn’t get my message and someone else booked the time slot I was offered. They offered to do it Friday, but I couldn’t do it then because I needed time to recuperate afterwards and another teacher and I were in charge of Prom that Saturday. I was so emotional at this point. I don’t know what the office did, but they were able to get me in on Wednesday the 11th. I would have plenty of time to recuperate before I had to put on prom.
Dilation & Curretage
I didn’t sign the paperwork for the d&c when I was at my dr visit, and you can’t sign it while on norco, so we had to make a special trip on the Saturday before my surgery to sign the paperwork.
Wednesday May 11th 9am. This was an in-office procedure/surgery. I know I said I wasn’t going to do this again, but I don’t know. I just did it.
My instructions were the same as before. I knew the protocol and didn’t need to review them with the nurse, even though I still did. My appointment was at 9am. I skipped the motrin the night before, and had to take
5 am (4 hrs prior to procedure): 2 (200mcg) misoprostol supporitories.
8 am (1 hr prior to procedure): 1 (600 mg) motrin, 1-2 (I only took 1 this time) Norco, 1 Ativan, and 1 (100mg) Doxycycline
9 am prep: 1 sort of tordol in the booty, and then 3 shots of nerve blockers in the cervix
So here’s the thing. You’re supposed to fast for this procedure. But since the meds aren’t good to take on an empty stomach, I ate just a little bit with taking them.
The procedure went fine. There wasn’t really anything to send off besides lining since the gestational sacs already came out.
But this is the first time I have had this procedure and I DIDN’T THROW UP!! It’s the little things.
Today June 5th 2016
Finally I am up to date. It’s been 3 weeks and 5 days since my d&c. I have had some tinting and like a week ago for 2 days had a little string of tissue come out, but no period.
We have heard back from the immunologist, YAY! And have a whole list of things to test and do, and then we will see what is going or, or if other tests are needed after that. We haven’t scheduled any of the tests yet, nor do we know how much all of this will cost. Time will tell. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers that we will be able to figure out what is going on. We eagerly await the day we can hold our babies in our arms. We still have hope. I have to hold onto hope.